After taking time away from the daily bookish overload that I’ve seemed to let consume my little bibliophile life, I’ve come to a few conclusions. I’ve taken time this past week to relax, reflect, and to love. I deeply appreciate all of the kindness and support I’ve received from friends and family, as well as the blogging community right here on WordPress. My last post was an explanation of my week’s Silence as well as a tribute poem to my sweet Grandma that passed away last week.
She was such a beautiful woman, and her services were a direct reflection of the love she had given to so many. Truly an unconditional giver, and I’m so blessed to be able to have called such a humble and powerful woman my Grandma!
Amidst the week full of grieving, family connections, and quiet reflection I’ve realized so much about balance that I didn’t even actually realize had been missing from my life.
It’s so easy to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of daily life, that we can forget to stop and slow down. It’s sad really, what it takes sometimes to force us to look around and appreciate the people we have, and the lives we’ve built!
I’ve been extremely lucky, and until now at 32 I’ve yet to loose anyone so close. I’ve lost friends, and distant (ish) relatives, but none as close as my Grandma. Needless to say, the entire experience has been a full mixture of heartache and eye-opening moments.
The main thing that’s really stuck in my chest is the interactions with those I love. I’ve sat back and watched the hugs, the tears, the patience, and even pride and gratitude between family both close and distant. I’ve quietly soaked it all up like a sponge, and let the love my Grandma had for everyone wash over me. I’ve taken that punch to the heart, and used it to reflect on my own little immediate family. Playing with my two little ones this week, and having long heartfelt talks with my husband has actually left a blissful taste in my mouth. It’s a flavor that I wish I’d cherish more often.
Hopefully this little reflection will stay with me, and I’ll take the time to stop and appreciate the people in my life that I love and need more often than I actually do! I’m so blessed. I know that I’ll hug my family tighter, and love them a bit more consciously as time rolls on. Hopefully this will inspire anyone reading to do the same!
Along with reflecting on all of the love and appreciation that’s often taken for granted, I’ve also reflected on how much time I spend where! This is a big one. I’m a multitasker, and I overbook myself all the time. I take on too much, too often and ultimately it takes away from the time I should be slowing down and appreciating my daily life. I know this is common and we all do it to some extent, but among all of my reflecting I’ve broken things down and decided to make some cuts.
I’m so far behind right now on so many things. Just a few of the things I’m behind on is promised reads/reviews, writing projects and goals, and even household wifey things too. My plan at the moment is to catch up at my own pace without forcing myself to rush. Time will keep ticking, and if I’m late I’m late. A big part of catching up will be not taking on anything else!!
I have a list of books that I’m so extremely excited to read (many of which are written by the Indi authors I follow here!), and a list of projects that I’m so excited to write! So, I’m going to do just that. I’m going to catch up on all the things I’m ALREADY excited about without adding more in lol. I know that’s a big problem for a bibliophile like myself, but I’m going to give it my best shot! Wish me luck, and don’t be surprised if I only write a post every couple days rather than every single day all as a part of re-vamping my schedule to make time for myself and my family more so than usual.
Thanks for reading my reflection rant of sorts. Please Please Please do the same for yourselves and your own loved ones. You’re worth it and so are they!